I had my first chemo on wednesday...

..my body is OK but my soul hurts....

I cry a lot lately...

mood: depressed

I went to the gynecologist today...

...it's a new one because my old one was incompetent and not very gentle..
my new one is amazing...she has a lot of experiences (she worked at the hospital before and did operations as well) and she said  to me
"We have to look after you very carefully "
she reassures me a lot <3

waiting for better days to come

I went to hospital today and I talked with the doctor about my medical care..I will start chemo next week (6 x FEC) and I will definetly loose my hair because it's a heavy chemo...

I will get the chemo untill early september and after that they will start with radiation + some other stuff (after radiation)

...today was one of those sad, depressing and crying days..I hope tomorrow will be a better day

*note to myself: need to find more headscarfs to cover my soon to be bald head*